To my son Conner.

To my first born, my son, my angel,

You have been gone for 9 years

You have 2 brothers and 2 sisters.

I teach them about you and where you at.

I teach them about the way you made me grow and how we need to be extra good so we can be together as a family.

Son as you know our Nana passed away from earth I want you to keep a good eye on her.

Teacher her the in and outs of things. If you have ice cream or anything like that in heaven give her a extra helping.

Honey when I think of you I still get all teary eyed I still think of the moments we had together.

I still remember you face sometime I see it in your brothers and sister when they sleep.

I remember you LONG toes that your dad gave you and your fingers too.

I remember holding you in my arms and hopping you would wake.

I remember the room the lights, smell, the nurses, the blanket that they wrapped you in.

I remember the look on everyone face of sadness.

Son I know that someday I will get to raise you. I know we will be together forever. I know that you still live your spirit is working had to help others on the other side.

I love you more then you know thank you for teaching me so much, helping me grow I wont do you shame I love you son then now and forever.